made a decision

read this on a website i highly recommend.

“However behavior training alone does not make a complete slave. She must see herself as a slave and be at peace in her slavery. In short, her behavior, emotions, self-image and thoughts are all part of training. A slave must be willing to open her inner thoughts and feelings to her Master. It is another key issue in her development. Openness is a learned skill.”

i was having a discussion with my Master over dinner about how i was feeling more like a maid rather than the slave i desire to be. then suddenly, i came across the website i mention above and it all became so clear. i need to make a decision every day to be a slave, and be a loving and obedient slave to my master. in fact, i plan to make that a ritual if my Master finds it acceptable.

wow, i can’t tell you what a discovery that was for me. it’s a choice. it’s not the work i do around the houes, the duties i take care of or the choices i make when i am not physically with my Master. it’s a choice i get to make daily, hourly and in the moment. what a blessed choice! to be owned, cared for, unconditionally loved. i am so full of joy at this moment. thank you, Master.